Tulizanas musings

It has been forever since I logged in.Changed jobs(not the organisation),am in a busier much more brain stimulating place and am loving it.

Moved houses to a new and better place am even getting inspired to do a proper decor in my bedroom something that says wow when you walk in.

I started taking cooking a bit more seriously and I can say am not scared of any meal that says bake or put in the oven.

I did a makeup class.May not be a guru at it but I can say I know a bit more about it now practically….

Am in a happier place literally.Am loving evryone and am more forgiving and accepting.What you ask for He provides according to his riches and I have wanted to forgive for a long time now and be free.

Am hoping that I am now back completely and here to stay to spice up a few things

I do not think there is a month I love more than another.I think all months like days are what you make them.Leaving in Africa means that there is no Winter,autumn,spring.Its summer most of the days apart from it getting chilly in July with a bit of rain.
I think having a terrible and favorite month is just an excuse to blame circumstances for your actions

Public speaking is on my to try list of things.Hopefully I would be able to do this this year.

I feel that I have a lot of things to say and get out there.

The opportunities to get out there are far in between but am beginning to create them.
I believe by giving your point of view you could change someone’s life in a great or small way.Am going to do this in a big way.

That I am a really nice person and not a party animal.In another life I would be a tatoo artist extremely exhibitionist.My hair and fashion sense comes across to some as a party animal.Don’t get me wrong I love life more than life itself if that is possible.I love music all kinds actually apart from hard rock.I listen to my IPod a bit too much but thats it.
I have been told I come across snobbish until we start talking and you can’t believe I was ever a snob to you.
I am the quiet girl you see in a corner with a book (that makes me look shy) am no wallflower.

I never worry.
Am not worried that things will not go my way.Am not worried that something terrible is lurking at the corner.
I never used to be like this I used to worry whether I would have enough money to do all that I was meant to do,worry whether I would get a job in a country where everyone believes you have to know someone.Then I read “How to stop worrying and start living by Dale Carnegie” and I have not worried another minute since.
My favorite verse in the Bible is Mathew 6:24-34.I live by this verse.The other quote I live by is “I know who holds my tomorrow”.
If you are a worry wart get yourself a copy of Dale Carnegie’s book,you will be cured.

It is cliche that most people say it can not buy you happiness.If you think money can’t buy happiness, you have never truly lacked.

What is happiness really?Wikipedia describes it as “a mental state of well-being characterized by positive emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy.[1] A variety of biological, psychological, religious, and philosophical approaches have striven to define happiness and identify its sources.


Philosophers and religious thinkers often define happiness in terms of living a good life, or flourishing, rather than simply as an emotion. Happiness in this older sense was used to translate the Greek Eudaimonia, and is still used in virtue ethics.”

Now that that is out of the way,to be content you need money.
Imagine your child was terminally ill and you earned Kshs 7 thousand a month,what options do you have? You can beg for the money,go on national television with your pity story or pray for a miracle(you need faith).Would you be happy in this case?

Suppose you are an unemployed single parent living in a slum, do you think money can buy you food,clothes,morality,descency?With money you are upgraded from the humiliating situation of begging on your knees for a few more days to raise the Kshs 600 rent,your sense of morality is heightened b the fact that you are not desperate to exchange sex for money to feed your children.

“Why do we pray as Mother’s that God will be able to supply the requirement of our Children according to His bounty.Dear God help me make enough money this month to pay for the swimming lesson my daughter is interested in.Help me God to pay for school fees this year.If you could just send me kshs 1,000 to pay the grocer so that I can take more vegetables on credit i’d be thankfull.”

Money has never been evil but rather the human mind and what it is willing to do to get the money.
Having money makes the difference between being trampled upon and walking with your head held up.
In India having money differentiates you from being that maimed child in the street without an eye or a kidney begging knowing that your life depends on it

Am so good with faces.I remember people I have been introduced to or not been introduced to.I remember where I first met you and sometimes what made me remember you.
Its unfortunate that this memory gives my brain a lot of characters to work with at night in my dreams.My dreams are like an expensive movies with tooo many extras
The strange thing is I do not remember names (not all of them just some).

Why cheat when you can leave someone and move on.
I get that there is the rush of excitement the planning and conniving to get out of a dinner engagement with your current someone .
The hidden tickets,step by step plans and execution of the ideas,the out of town trips to places no one knows your name or your history.Is it really fair to the someone in your life?Is it worth it at the end of the day when you are caught.
Love changes or rather goes through changes there is the happy hills and the sad valleys but you come out stronger.
It wouldn’t be prudent to buy new clothes each time all of them got dirty why should you keep moving around.
If you are not sure about someone leave them alone they will thank you for it later.

At the beginning of every year I make decisions or plans that I intend to see through by the end of the year.
This year I had a small list.Am proud that I started saving and spending or rather putting my money to good use.It makes me smile that I am able to do this and so proud of myself.
It is an amazing feeling to know you are postponing something for the future.

I would probably smile,say hello and move on.I mean it was great while it lasted but am in a different place now…a different person. So much has changed and for the best.I doubt there would be much to talk about.
So here goes the smile

I can’t get over the new music thats how exciting the collection is.It is amazing that there can be a lot of similarities with a person and you don’t quite see or know it.Thanks